An old entry of mine.
There are so much more things now that I'm jealous of. Normal lives, for instance. Right now, I wish I could line up all my loved-ones in front of me, for the sake of knowing that I can.
And then I would like a clear, and definite path for me to take. No dark corners, no unexpected twists, no mystery. Just for today. Just so I know I have ample reason to go on. I'm just so tired of not knowing anymore.
But as I wrote in my paper journal a couple of weeks ago:
"Maybe 22 is too young for peace, at least the kind that I am looking for. Who knows, I might reach the point wherein I would much rather have this dramatic sense of turbulence than smooth, uneventful sailing."
I really need clarity right now, though. I'm starting to lose my sense of hope.
There are so much more things now that I'm jealous of. Normal lives, for instance. Right now, I wish I could line up all my loved-ones in front of me, for the sake of knowing that I can.
And then I would like a clear, and definite path for me to take. No dark corners, no unexpected twists, no mystery. Just for today. Just so I know I have ample reason to go on. I'm just so tired of not knowing anymore.
But as I wrote in my paper journal a couple of weeks ago:
"Maybe 22 is too young for peace, at least the kind that I am looking for. Who knows, I might reach the point wherein I would much rather have this dramatic sense of turbulence than smooth, uneventful sailing."
I really need clarity right now, though. I'm starting to lose my sense of hope.
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