I just realized how lazy I was when I found myself watching a pencil that was within arm's reach, rolling back and forth dangerously close to the table's edge, and I just let it drop. How tempting to sometimes deal with life that way too. Tempting to detach yourself from a difficult situation and just watch yourself go through the motions without having to move a muscle. Of course, that wouldn't be much of a life but oh, just sometimes...
I really have to do something about my stomach. It's not cute anymore and, considering that I'm going to the beach in two weeks ... it's pretty unsightly. I keep restraining myself from getting on the treadmill because I still can't exercise till I get another blood test. It's not that I want to compete with all the hotsie patootsies that will be frolicking on the sand, I just want to fit into bottoms that won't have my ab spilling over the waistband.
As you can see, I have too much time on my hands.
The past couple of weeks haven't been easy. I have had to deal with a severe reality check with someone I love dearly. I don't think it's anyone's fault, really. It's not so much a giving up but accepting. All in all, it's just life and its many lessons at work. I don't really want to get into an epiphany or a discussion about it. There aren't too many days a person can spend moping and crying and asking why why why (Not that I haven't been doing my fair share of it. I did delete my Friendster account in a fit of rage. Like that's going to do anything. Like that's the perfect gesture of fuckyouworld. Pathetic!). It just is. However, even though there are bigger things in life than our situation, we are still our number one prayer. Hopefully we work out, both individually and together. Hopefully hopefully. God knows there isn't anyone else I want to be with right now.
And oh. I'm going to law school.
So that's what's new-ish. What about you guys?
I really have to do something about my stomach. It's not cute anymore and, considering that I'm going to the beach in two weeks ... it's pretty unsightly. I keep restraining myself from getting on the treadmill because I still can't exercise till I get another blood test. It's not that I want to compete with all the hotsie patootsies that will be frolicking on the sand, I just want to fit into bottoms that won't have my ab spilling over the waistband.
As you can see, I have too much time on my hands.
The past couple of weeks haven't been easy. I have had to deal with a severe reality check with someone I love dearly. I don't think it's anyone's fault, really. It's not so much a giving up but accepting. All in all, it's just life and its many lessons at work. I don't really want to get into an epiphany or a discussion about it. There aren't too many days a person can spend moping and crying and asking why why why (Not that I haven't been doing my fair share of it. I did delete my Friendster account in a fit of rage. Like that's going to do anything. Like that's the perfect gesture of fuckyouworld. Pathetic!). It just is. However, even though there are bigger things in life than our situation, we are still our number one prayer. Hopefully we work out, both individually and together. Hopefully hopefully. God knows there isn't anyone else I want to be with right now.
And oh. I'm going to law school.
So that's what's new-ish. What about you guys?
6 comments:
Hay Mika, ang galing mo talaga magsulat. I want to go back to paul go's or gad lim's class just to read your essays.:) sabi ng killers, everything's gonna be alright. sana tama sila.
you sound glum, chum (sorry, couldn't resist the rhyme). but couldn't help noticing there's a glimmer of hope in there somewhere, too. basta whatever happens, i pray for what's best for you. it may not be what'll make you happy on days that (seem to) matter the most (the saddest days), but it'll come when you least expect it. di mo na lang mapapansin na hey, i'm happy. i don't know if i'm making sense, but anyway, good luck with law school, too. =)
you'll get through it, i'm sure. and congratulations re law school!!!
new-ish?
last summer ever [if i graduate on time]
btw you re just going to LOVE law school, it's such a HAPPY place :D
bwahaha
Lou: Sana tama nga yung killers :)
Chrissy: That's what sucks sometimes. There's always hope. Even if it keeps getting trampled on it's always theeeeeere. Thanks for the vote of confidence, though. Miss ko na kayo ni Lou.
Naya: Thanks! Congratulations to you too!
Richelle: We shall see, we shall see.
oh. so i'm in good company. i tend to watch walls naman.
watch pencils..?
*snicker.
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