My parents, in their tradition of hating parties, bought a treadmill for their 25th anniversary. It's pretty heavy-duty; the kind used in various gyms. This means that a hundred or more people can use it in a day without wrecking it, right? Well guess what.

It took my dad all of 3 days (20 minutes each) to do it.

Oh, Jorge.

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Paper excerpts:

I don't even have the courage to book the flight. Once my name has been entered into the calendar and the ticket paid for, it will be as if I am marching forth to meet a certain death - death of the comfort zone, death of idealism (because finally, it is here and happening), etc. As I have said, however, it needs to happen - failure or success - in front of and around me.

2005 will be my year of motion, possibly the most important year of my life. It will be the year where I take fate by the neck and squeeze for all that it can offer and is worth.

(Another day)

Still haven't booked. What's wrong with me? First major decision and I'm chickening out. i hesistate with each wonderful moment I spend with my family. When I was in Boracay, I never wanted to leave. Plus, there have been fights surfacing and resurfacing - certainly not the best environment to work up the courage to leave home. I'm feeling like Nell again, what with my 39 degree fever. So I have been avoiding many things - people, work, and responsibilities.

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I have been a listless mess for the past few weeks. I haven't read anything new because I'm so busy doing nothing. The last book I finished was Sark's "Succulent Wild Woman" and I'm gritting my teeth just typing that out. I used to be so wary of Sark. I’d turn a page or two and get blinded by all the day-glo cheer. I gave it a chance when I went to the beach, though, and I guess I picked up a thing or two. Positivity is crucial, at this point of my life.

Besides, I got this really great quote from it:

"When you come to the edge of all the light you have, and must take a step into the darkness of the unknown, believe that one of two things will happen to you: either there will be something solid for you to stand on, or, you will be taught how to fly" - Patrick Overton

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I haven't had work in ages so I've pretty much forgotten my kids' names. Let's see what happens tomorrow.

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Listening to my power song, I finally have the courage to say it. I'm booked for February 5. Here we go. Everything I have to say about it is magnificently captured in this song.

God I love my parents.

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I finally got this template up. Jesus. That took me a while. I've had this template in my hard drive for a while now but I've been procrastinating. A big no-no for 2005. New Year New Template! Oh, and check Mai's new template out, too.