Unfortunately, when something screws up, I'm not the type of person who can brush it off. And so I go through the rest of the day feeling rotten, even if you can't do anything about it anyway. Like that cd my brother wrecked - I lost sleep because I was remembering what songs were on it. Like my current dilemma of finding a job - I must have gone hours dissecting and re-dissecting the possibilities. Like my relationship - five years of wondering why we deserve so much complications and so little reprieve. I have long since accepted the fact that everything about the relationship will be ten times more difficult than the usual. But it doesn't necessarily follow, no, it definitely doesn't follow that I will be gracious about it. No, I will always be bitter and spiteful.

My head hurts. Papagupit na lang ako.